Well, I guess I'll be honest, because silence isn't helping anyone.

There's so much I need to say right now, but I have no one to say it to. I don't know if my best friend knows this, but I gave up quite a bit to be her friend. In years past, I have had a fair amount of friends, both in my year and the year above it. Last year, I met an amazing person who happened to be in the year under me. We started hanging out. I got a lot of crap for hanging out with a freshman, but it was worth it. I lost quite a few friends over her, but it was worth it. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends to hang out with her, but it was worth it. By the end of the year, I could only claim about ten of my old friends and even they were extremely distant from me.
Now this year, I never see or talk to my best friend, and when I try to tell her things, she brushes it off like it's nothing. When I try to hang with her at band she usually walks away to hang out with her other friends. It doesn't help that the guy she likes is in Band. I don't care if she has other friends (of course I'm happy that she has other friends). But this year has already been so lonely. The only person I can talk to is someone I don't really want to talk to about this stuff. All my other old friends are still wary of me, so they don't talk to me often. Even when I do get to talk to her, things aren't the same. It feels awkward, like we don't even know each other any more.
I know she doesn't even realize how much this is hurting me. I don't blame her for this. I just really need a friend right now. I wish things would go back to the way they were last year.